I often find it extremely difficult to find true happiness or something as simple as walking around with a smile, in a world that is surrounded by so much pain. I try to block out my surroundings because I need to stay focused and motivated so that I do not pedal backwards, so I don’t have to keep hearing this damn record player that I can’t seem to get to shut the fuck up!
Way to often, I hear those around me bad mouthing anyone that resembles a homeless person, and without even giving the person a chance to make a mistake, they are already deemed as guilty, how the fuck does that happen?
I am approximately 120 in weight, I barely wear make-up because I just don’t see the reason to waste that time, I don’t wear the most fashionable clothes as again I just don’t see the point, and nine times outta ten, my paychek is gone before it even hits my bank account because well, us unfortunates had to start paying more in rent, in taxes, in food cost, in just about everything, and you wonder why there are so many homeless people. We are not getting enough from what we do to even start to see the light at the end of the tunnel, we just have to keep watching everyone and our surroundings on a 24 hour bases with no let up because you just never know who or why a person can come out of nowhere and take it all away from you.
I encourage you all, who have no freaking idea what it’s like to live on these streets, work long hours for companies that don’t appreciate a damn thing you do, who have to constantly worry about their safety, and is just so completely full of pain and anger because if you could just figure out a way to help all of those in pain, show them that there may not be any good people out here any more, but I am a one in a million and would be glad to help in “ANY AND EVERY WAY,” that I can, I will/would. I wish I could win the lottery, or find away to make really good money because I deserve it, I don’t expect hand outs, I WILL work for everything given to me, and I would open a home to these homeless women, families, men that just need a strong, well developed program fully funded, community that will hold their hands, walk them through the steps and be there as a community to celebrate in a healthy way their accomplishments. Sure there are shelters and such but they NEED and DESERVE more.
Help me raise awareness, just like the raise in awareness of everything else…. I wish I had a zilaphone that I could shout into, every single day to get them the help they need. I refuse to sit here, continue to walk past them, avoiding them like so many people do! Put yourself in their shoes, take just a few moments and really see how you would feel if you were to ever fall that low! Don’t say it wont or can’t happen to you, because you know what, 4 1/2 years ago I said the exact same thing, I promised myself I wouldn’t allow it to happen and I did, but I am grateful that I did because someone has got to fight!